床の上での星さんは献身的だった。僕の手を煩わせまいと、ぎこちない動きでただ僕に快楽を与え続けた。「嬉しいです。今、一番貴方の傍に居るのは私なのですから」僕の肩を抱いて星さんは言う。「本当の所、ナズとはどういう関係なのです？私が思うに体だけの関係だと思うのですが」僕は答えられない。実際の所はそうなのだけど、ただ、単に体が欲しいからという事ではないはずなんだ。でも、分らない。 「もし抱く体が必要でしたら、これからは私に今日の様にお情けを下さい。貴方が言う事ならなんでもします。ナズに出来ない事だって」と言って、胸を僕に押し付けた。「決して貴方のお邪魔はしません。ナズとの付合いを止めてくれという事じゃありません。ただ、こうして少しの時間私を傍に置いて欲しいのです。それだけで満足ですから。」と星さんは、最初押し倒して来た時の眼。あの生気がなくて、拒絶されたら、すぐに死んでしまいそうな眼で僕に問いかけて来た。いいよと言うしかなかった。それ以外に星さんを傷つけない方法なんてなかった。僕が答えると星さんは顔を大きく綻ばせて「有難うございますっ！」ととても嬉しそうに僕を抱く力を強めた。「あの、差し出がましいお願いですが、口付けをして頂けませんか？。別に気持ちが篭っていなくて構いません。ただ、唇を触れ合わせてくれればいいですから。」星さんはそう言った後、そっと目を閉じた。僕は一瞬だけ躊躇ってしまったものの、星さんの裸体から感じる体温が僕の躊躇いを殺した。自分の気持ちがはっきりしなくて、かつナズとの関係もはっきりしない。そんな状態なのに、これ以上星さんに入り込むべきではないのだ。しかし、星さんの体は温かくて、肉の重みがあって、鼓動があって、吐息があって確かな存在感があった。僕には星さんを見捨てられない。今まで一緒に過ごして、好意を持って来た。そんな星さんが、なりふり構わずに僕に迫ってきて、そして、肌を共にしたんだ。見捨てられる訳がない。僕は星さんに求められるままキスをした。僕から顔を近づけて。「・・・有難うございます。貴方からされるのが夢だった」長いキスの後、星さんは感慨深そうに涙を流した。ナズへの気持ちも関係も中途半端なまま中途半端な同情で星さんを受入れた。この選択が僕らをどこへ運んでくれるか分らないけれど、ただ僕はその道筋に不安を感じるばかりでわっふるわっふる

Shou-san was determined to share my bed. She was clumsy, but everything she did was just for my pleasure, since she didn't want to bother me.
"I'm so happy that I'm the one closest to you right now," she said from under my arm.
"But really, what kind of relationship do you have with Nazu? I really do believe it was just a physical relationship, but..."
I couldn't answer. The truth was, while the relationship was based on sex, there was more to it than that. I don't understand it myself.
"If you need someone to hold, from now on please hold me, just like you are now. I'll do anything you ask. Even things you couldn't do with Nazu," she said, pressing her breasts against me.
"I don't want to get in your way. I'm not saying you should stop seeing Nazu. I just want a little time set aside for us to do things like this. I'd be happy with just that," she said, with the same stare as when she first pushed me down. Those empty eyes implored me, and threatened death if I refused. Saying yes was my only choice. Anything else and there was no way she wouldn't hurt me.
So I said it.
Her face beamed, bursting with joy, "Thank you so much!" she said, squeezing me tighter.
"Ah, I know it's being pushy, but can you give me a kiss? It doesn't have to be real kiss, just touch your lips to mine," she said, closing her eyes.
My momentary hesitation was killed by the warmth of her naked body. I was torn, just like my relationship with Nazu tore at me. I shouldn't get more involved with Shou-san when my thoughts are like this, but her skin was hot, her body heavy, her pulse quick, her breath short, and her presence made me the same. I couldn't abandon her. Until now, the whole time we were together she showed me every courtesy. She came to me without caring how it would look, and we made love to each other. It was impossible for me to abandon her. I gave her the kiss she really wanted.
She pulled away from me a little and said, "... Thank you. Being kissed by you was my dream."
After the long kiss, Shou-san let out impassioned tears. I accepted Shou partly out of pity, and with both my feelings towards Nazu and my relationship to her undecided. I didn't know where my decision would take us, just that I was afraid of what was coming.